Couldn't get a handle on it ...

Impatience. A feeling of air rising up from the gut, gushing upwards through the chest and translated into nasty words, targeting everyone except self. Just embarrassing ..... and tiring. Just don't know how to get a handle on it ..... and it's a shitty feeling ...

Just feel like writing again ... after ...

 A decade of adventures, boring and non-boring alike, a decade of "settled" life, adventurous and non-adventurous alike, another decade of existence, at times meaningful and dull at other times .....